I never mourned. I had to begin
and begin again, with hope,
before I could look back
at what I had done
and to whom. When I was fire
I felt my bull beneath me
in the chute. The sky was a wall
of stuck-shut windows.
I hadn’t thought in this century
it was possible to smell God—
but something in the soil
the very last time. It was there
when I let the bull bolt
from under, circle, and face me.
It was there where I bowed to him
burning.
- Sam Ross, from Company
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Adaptation, Tel Aviv
I squeeze the aloe
flesh over my knees
as your cousin scolds me
for saying ocean
when we are by a sea.
To me this is casual—
isn’t it all the same water?—
to her it isn’t.
What I could call her
is colonist since
it takes one to know.
Later, I wake when evening
still stains viridian
above the pink
and lemon neighborhood
to the schhh
of your grandfather’s
slippers on the tile which I hear
as the first soft syllable
of the name
we share. Six years
now you and I don’t speak.
If I was not in love
there are secrets
a self keeps safe—
if I was you were right
to forget me.
- Sam Ross, from Company