Robert Hass - "Paschal Lamb"

Paschal Lamb

Well, David had said–it was snowing outside and his voice contained
many registers of anger, disgust, and wounded justice, I think it's crazy.
I'm not going to be a sacrificial lamb.

In Greece sometimes, a friend told me, when she walked on the high
road above the sea back to her house from the village in the dark, and
the sky seemed immense, the moon terribly bright, she wondered if her
life would be a fit gift.

And there is that poor heifer in the poem by Keats, all decked out in
ribbons and flowers, no terror in the eyes, no uncontrollable slobber of
mucus at the muzzle, since she didn't understand the festivities.

And years later, after David had quit academic life, he actually
bought a ranch in Kentucky near a town called Pleasantville, and
began to raise sheep.

When we visited that summer and the nights were shrill with crickets
and the heat did not let up, we traded stories after dinner and he told us
again the story about his first teaching job and the vice president.

When he bought the place, he had continued his subscription to The
Guardian and Workers Vanguard, but they piled up in a corner un-
read. He had a mortgage to pay. He didn't know a thing about raising
animals for slaughter, and so he read The American Sheepman with an
intensity of concentration he had never even approximated when he
was reading political theory for his Ph.D. orals.

The vice president of the United States, after his term in office,
accepted a position as a lecturer in political science at a small college in
his home district, where David had just taken his first job. The dean
brought Hubert Humphrey around to introduce him to the faculty.
When they came to David's office, the vice president, expensively
dressed, immensely hearty, extended his hand and David did not feel
he could take it because he believed the man was a war criminal; and
not knowing any way to avoid the awkwardness, he said so, which
was the beginning of his losing the job at that college.

But that was the dean's doing. The vice president started to cry. He had
the hurt look, David said, of a kicked dog with a long, unblemished
record of loyalty and affection, this man who had publicly defended,
had praised the terror bombing of villages full of peasants. He seemed
to David unimaginably empty of inner life if he could be hurt rather
than affronted by a callow young man making a stiffly moral gesture in
front of two men his father's age. David said that he had never looked
at another human being with such icy, wondering detachment, and that
he hadn't liked the sensation.

And so in the high-ceilinged kitchen, in the cricket-riddled air drenched
with the odor of clover, we remembered Vic Doyno in the snow in Buffalo,
in the days when the war went on continuously like a nightmare in our
waking and sleeping hours.

Vic had come to work flushed with excitement at an idea he had had in
the middle of the night. He had figured out how to end the war. It was
a simple plan. Everyone in the country–in the world, certainly a lot
of Swedish and English students would go along–who was opposed
to the war would simply cut off the little finger on the left hand and
send it to the president. Imagine! They would arrive slowly at first, the
act of one or two maniacs, but the news would hit the newspapers and
the next day there would be a few more. And the day after that more.
And on the fourth day there would be thousands. And on the fifth day,
clinics would be set up–organized by medical students in Madison,
San Francisco, Stockholm, Paris–to deal with the surgical procedure
safely and on a massive scale. And on the sixth day, the war would stop.
It would stop. The helicopters at Bien Hoa would sit on the airfields
in silence like squads of disciplined mosquitoes. Peasants, worried and
curious because peasants are always worried and curious, would stare
up curiously into the unfamiliar quiet of a blue, cirrus-drifted sky. And
years later we would know each other by those missing fingers. An
aging Japanese businessman minus a little finger on his left hand would
notice the similarly mutilated hand of his cab driver in Chicago, and
they would exchange a fleeting unspoken nod of fellowship.

And it could happen. All we had to do to make it happen–Vic had
said, while the water for tea hissed on the hot plate in David's chilly
office and the snow came down thick as cotton batting, was cut off our
little fingers right now, take them down to the department secretary, and
have her put them in the mail.

- Robert Hass

Another Elegy - Jericho Brown

To believe in God is to love
What none can see. Let a lover go,

Let him walk out with the good
Spoons or die

Without a signature, and so much
Remains for scrubbing, for a polish

Cleaner than devotion. Tonight,
God is one spot, and you,

You must be one blind nun. You
Wipe, you rub, but love won’t move.

Virginia Woolf, from "Kew Gardens"

"Imagine six little girls sitting before their easels twenty years ago, down by the side of a lake, painting the water-lilies. And suddenly a kiss, there on the back of my neck. And my hand shook all the afternoon so that I couldn't paint. I took out my watch and marked the hour when I would allow myself to think of the kiss for five minutes only—it was so precious."

James Wright - "To the Muse"

It is all right. All they do
Is go in by dividing
One rib from another. I wouldn’t
Lie to you. It hurts
Like nothing I know. All they do
Is burn their way in with a wire.
It forks in and out a little like the tongue
Of that frightened garter snake we caught
At Cloverfield, you and me, Jenny
So long ago.

I would lie to you
If I could.
But the only way I can get you to come up
Out of the suckhole, the south face
Of the Powhatan pit, is to tell you
What you know:

You come up after dark, you poise alone
With me on the shore.
I lead you back to this world.

Three lady doctors in Wheeling open
Their offices at night.
I don’t have to call them, they are always there.
But they only have to put the knife once
Under your breast.
Then they hang their contraption.
And you bear it.

It’s awkward a while. Still, it lets you
Walk about on tiptoe if you don’t
Jiggle the needle.
It might stab your heart, you see.
The blade hangs in your lung and the tube
Keeps it draining.
That way they only have to stab you
Once. Oh Jenny.

I wish to God I had made this world, this scurvy
And disastrous place. I
Didn’t, I can’t bear it
Either, I don’t blame you, sleeping down there
Face down in the unbelievable silk of spring,
Muse of black sand,
Alone.

I don’t blame you, I know
The place where you lie.
I admit everything. But look at me.
How can I live without you?
Come up to me, love,
Out of the river, or I will
Come down to you.

- James Wright, from Shall We Gather at the River