At the Theater
Lydia Seated in the Garden with a Dog in Her Lap
At the Theater
Lydia Seated in the Garden with a Dog in Her Lap
“…They sat down again, side by side, and hand clasped in hand, on the mossy trunk of the fallen tree. Life had never brought them a gloomier hour; it was the point whither their pathway had so long been tending, and darkening ever, as they stole along; — and yet it enclosed a charm that made them linger upon it, and claim another, and another, and, after all, another moment. The forest was obscure around them, and creaked with a blast that was passing through it. The boughs were tossing heavily about their heads; while one solemn old tree groaned dolefully to another, as if telling the sad story of the pair that sat beneath, or constrained to forebode evil to come.
And yet they lingered. How dreary looked the forest-track that led backward to the settlement, where Hester Prynne must take up again the burden of her ignominy, and the minister the hollow mockery of his good name! So they lingered an instant longer. No golden light had ever been so precious as the gloom of this dark forest. Here, seen only be his eyes, the scarlet letter need not burn into the bosom of the fallen woman! Here, seen only by her eyes, Arthur Dimmesdale, false to God and man, might be, for one moment, true!…”
- From Chapter 17, The Pastor and his Parishioner”
1.
I woke,
Just about daybreak, and fell back
In a drowse.
A clean leaf from one of the new cedars
Has blown in through the open window.
How long ago a huge shadow of wings pondering and hovering
leaned down
To comfort my face.
I don’t care who loved me.
Somebody did, so I let myself alone.
I will stand watch for you, now.
I lay here awake a long time before I looked up
And found you sunning yourself asleep
In the Secret Life of Jakob Boehme
Left open on the desk.
2.
Our friends gave us their love
And this room to sleep in.
Outside now, not a sound.
Instead of rousing us out for breakfast,
Our friends love us and grant us our loneliness.
We shall waken again
When the courteous face of the old horse David
Appears at our window,
To snuffle and cough gently.
He, too, believes we may long for
One more dream of slow canters across the prairie
Before we come home to our strange bodies
And rise from the dead.
3.
As for me, I have been listening,
For an hour or so, now, to the scampering ghosts
Of Sioux ponies, down the long road
Toward South Dakota.
They just brought me home, leaning forward, by both hands
clinging
To the joists of the magnificent dappled feathers
Under their wings.
4.
As for you, I won’t press you to tell me
Where you have gone.
I know. I know how you love to edge down
The long trails of canyons.
At the bottom, along willow shores, you stand, waiting for twilight,
In the silence of deep grass.
You are safe there, guarded, for you know how the dark faces
Of the cliffs forbid easy plundering
Of their beautiful pueblos:
White cities concealed delicately in their chasms
As the new eggs of the mourning dove
In her ground nest,
That only the spirit hunters
Of the snow can find.
5.
Brown cricket, you are my friend’s name.
I will send back my shadow for your sake, to stand guard
On the solitude of the mourning dove’s young.
Here, I will stand by you, shadowless,
At the small golden door of your body till you wake
In a book that is shining.
The world smells green & wet & today I
am in a postlapsarian good mood
as I meander by the Raritan canal,
no longer moving in a deadly torpor
like a winter fly, but thinking once again
(the warming weather) about sex in a good way,
how all those smells you’re supposed to be ashamed of
or wash away smell good once you know a thing or two,
& it’s finally humid enough, this second day
after the rains, it is spring in New Jersey,
I itch my eyes freely & blink down on gnats
that seem determined to die in my field of
so-close-I-can’t-see-them, & people are out,
look at all their beautiful bodies, so many
ankles & knees, clicking whizz of bike wheels,
car exhaust hanging in the thick air,
helmets pressing sweaty hair to sticky foreheads,
a racket of motors on the other side of these trees,
early evening: the light just now is furtive, holy,
this is no prologue but the thing itself, the mud
& the grease & the grass & the wet asphalt
on one of those steaming, streaming, sunlit evenings
after a week of rain that brought out the frogs
to cover the road up the hill. There they were.
No one knew where they were going.
(from https://poets.org/poem/garden-state)
“In a journal it is important in a few words to describe the weather, or character of the day, as it affects our feelings.
That which was so important at the time cannot be unimportant to remember.”
- Henry David Thoreau, Feb. 5, 1955